What I've Learned

Yes, I'm still gone. Yes, I most likely still feel like Sicky McSickerson. And yes, this may not post when I need it to because I'm still not sure how this whole auto-post thing works. But I didn't wanna fail at NaBloPoMo and I didn't wanna let you guys down. So here's an excerpt from my journal many, many moons ago. I think the overall sentiment still resounds somewhere with all of us. Even now.

After one too many breakdowns and way too much heartbreak this is what I've learned.

Without pain you gain nothing. Without struggle you remain weak. Without loss you never fully appreciate life. And without heartache you never understand what love really is.

Life is full of twists and turns and at times it may seem chaotic, hopeless and inopportune but it's the way in which you learn from it that makes you a better person. We all make mistakes. We all wish things were different. At times, we may even wish we were someone else but one thing is certain - your life is yours and yours only. Don't EVER let anyone take that away from you. You are who you are for a reason and yes, sometimes things may not go as you wanted them to or as planned. And yes, there are times when you may wonder what it's all for and why not just give up? But no one ever said life was easy. Learn from your mistakes, cut your losses and move on. Growing from the hand life deals you is part of the process and it's whether or not you accept that challenge that makes you who you are.

It's time to stop agonizing over the things that you cannot change because all the "what ifs", "why nots" and "if onlys" leave you in a place where you are no longer LIVING your life. It's time to stop passively sitting by and letting life slip away, worrying about things that are of no significance in the long run. It's time to start actively LIVING your life. No more torturing yourself over mistakes in the past or things you wish you could take back and situations you wish you could change. LIVE your life. Don't worry about yesterday (because it's already gone and nothing will change it) or tomorrow (because no one knows what the next day will bring). Live NOW. Do what makes you happy. Don't worry about pleasing everyone because it's impossible. And in the grand scheme of things your life is just a blip on the radar screen...miniscule in comparison to it all.

So why not? Live, learn, grow, change....because we certainly don't know when it will be too late. We never know which breath will be our last.